I can remember being a child, and announcing to my world that someday I would be a foster and/or adoptive momma. I don’t know how I had become so aware of those worlds of foster care and adoption at such a young age, likely mostly because of my mother’s experience with both. But I do remember being countered with a “oh no, you will not! You will have your OWN children and that’s all,” by many of my family members, including both of my parents. Even then, this response chilled me; it made me cringe. First, I had an issue with the authority + power people we’re smashing over my head, and I didn’t want any person telling me what I would or wouldn’t do when I became an adult. I would do whatever I wanted to do when I grew up, because I could and no one could get in my way. That has a whole other story of life + healing right there, one we won’t get deeper into today. And secondly, even then, I somehow knew, and I mean deeply knew - down-in-my-guts-knew - that I would be a chain BREAKER, not a chain maker.
Knowing the passion, the desire, the call — that’s actually only part of the journey to YES, isn’t it!? When? How? Why? Who? When would be the right time? How could I make this actually become a reality? Why would I sign up for struggle and trauma and hurt and pain? Who was going to show up for me and for us and walk -crawl- this journey with me?
So very many questions, and still I knew. As a child, I knew. This is something I HAD to be faithful in seeking out. I didn’t even know why, or I didn’t have the vocabulary, but always this has been a must for me. Non-negotiable. That, of course, doesn’t mean it’s always been easy or simple or not terrifying.
Which is why when I told my college boyfriend, he kind of chuckled. When I told my new husband, he kind of cringed. When I asked my long time best friend, of nearly a decade, about it yet again, he kind of surprised me. Now, Nate’s journey to foster care isn’t like mine. It’s beautiful + it’s stunning, just like mine is, but it’s wonderfully different. I’ll let Nate tell that tale though. Let me say this - the Lord moved and I was stunned. He doesn’t make mistakes.
He is good.
through it all
He. Is. Good.
Who knows what’s ahead in this journey, but, until then, we’re being faithful to our heart’s convictions. All along the way, trying to keep our hearts wide open to the Lord’s love + leading. Pray with us.
This is our journey to foster care. This month, Lord willing always, we’ll complete our foster care licensing process and move forward in our fostering journey. Whatever timeline comes to fruition, we know we’ll be ending 2018 & beginning 2019 in a totally different place than we’ve ever experienced before — even though, in a way, we’ve been planning + praying about this for many years. Pray with us.
Lord, you are good, way gooder than we can begin to grasp, and your mercy is forever and ever new. May we become mirrors of you. Give us faith in your goodness and your long drawn up plans + hopes for us, and for every single human being. Give us wisdom that is only from your spirit, so we may know that peace that surpasses our limited understanding. Give us grace upon grace upon grace upon grace upon grace. Take fear, lies, doubt, shame, pride, and evil — uproot them from our hearts.
Let me also say a couple of last things about where we’re at right now with licensing and foster care. We are hoping + praying + planning for the children who come into our home + hearts in the next several weeks/months/years to be reunified with their birth families, finding freedom, liberation, redemption, + love. We hope + pray that.
As for our licensing parameters, the age range we’re getting licensed for is wide, and the number of children we’re getting licensed for is up to 2. Lastly, our specific timeline, as with any foster care timeline, is unknown at this time. We likely won’t get our first placement until after the new year (emphasis on ‘likely’). Until then, please, pray with us + process with us, and come along with us for this journey to fostering.
with love + hope,